To say that I’ve been wanting to start a blog for some time now is a major understatement. Ive spent years trying to convince myself why I should blog (because I love writing and I think I’m kinda interesting….ish) whilst using the same amount of energy to talk myself out of doing it. Why exactly?? If I’m honest I’d say it’s fear. Of what exactly?? Lord knows!
You see I’m a perfectionist but more than that I’m a control freak and though I’ve always loved writing, i’m my own toughest critic when it comes to anything. Gone are the days when I was a care free 13 year old who didn’t care about grammatical errors or trying to please anyone. I guess that’s because I didn’t write for an audience. I wrote what I felt only I had access to my notepads as diaries. Blogging however exposes one to the big World Wide Web and all the trolls that come with it. Truthbe told…that can be scary.
What’s changed,you asked? Well, there is something about bringing life into the world that gives one the impression that one can do anything…..kinda like superwoman. So I’m nervously writing this post at 3am as I hold my one month old daughter who doesn’t yet understand that night time is for sleeping because I realise that I owe it to myself to do what I love….dammit I owe it to my future readers who I’m sure will appreciate me sharing.
I started this blog to document my life as I experience the joys and challenges of motherhood for the first time whilst trying to juggle life, love and everything in between. There will be errors if all kinds and I’ll still critic myself harshly because that’s just who I am but for the first time in years….all that matters to me is that I just WRITE.
So hop in and enjoy the ride!