Eeekk….Lent is here!! Well, it started yesterday but I had a busy day being a mum and missed the memo until last night when I googled it…oh well!
I’ve noticed that the tradition (if I can call it that) is to give up the things you love for Lent such as cutting down on junk food or alcohol, etc. I fully understand this concept because the idea of sacrifice is to give up something you otherwise cannot go without or at the very least wouldn’t want to. A couple of Lents ago, I gave up social media because I felt that it had a stronghold on me in an unhealthy way. I felt that I was addicted to social media. The weird thing is I’m more active now than I was then in terms of posting but I sure love a good browse and it took over my mornings and late nights and anytime in between as well. It was so bad that I wasn’t even praying anymore. I’d browse till 2 or 3 in the morning knowing full well I had to get up for work at 6am. . So for Lent, I knew that I had to get the shackles off and I did. It was actually not as bad as I had feared. After a couple of weeks, the urge went and it didn’t seem like a big deal anymore. I’d really like to do the same now but seeing as I’m trying to be this great blogger and do YouTube videos, I don’t think it’d be feasible at this moment in time but maybe next time.
So yes, I fully appreciate the idea of sacrificing the things you like or love the most. I understand that sometimes, it doesn’t even feel like a sacrificiel unless it is something you like and it hurts to give it up but for this Lent I want to let go of things that are more intangible than tangible. I have realised that I can be a very emotional person. No, I don’t go around crying on cue but I have noticed that I often let emotions get the better of me and I let them lead me rather than me taking control of them. I have come to realise that not all feelings and emotions should be validated and so I have decided to strive everyday – but first for the next 40 days to get back control of my emotions. I cannot control other people and what they do or say but I sure damn well can control myself, my actions and my emotions and so here goes….
Following from that I also want to let go of any negativities. This includes things and people. I want to guard my heart more and be more deliberate in thinking more positively and looking at the glass half full rather than half empty. I want to choose to see the good in every and any situation no matter how dark and gloomy it may be. To make a long story short, I want to exercise more faith and trust in the Lord and let go of anything I cannot change. This to me is just as much a sacrifice as givi up the things I love because it doesn’t come naturally and I know it’ll hurt as all heck!
Last but not least, I want to start doing the things that I love more. Reading and writing are my absolute passion. They say do what you love and you’ll never work a day in your life and for me that’s writing. For years now, I have let life come between me and my passion and add motherhood to it – it’s been near enough impossible to find the time to read let alone write about anything. No more!!! I will now MAKE the time to write something…. anything for the next 40 days – be it on the blog or just my personal journal. After all, who knows what new habits I might develop and what new things I will create after these 40 days!
So that’s my Lent sorted. I’m not giving up anything I love but I’m deciding to let go of things I know are not good for me, my happiness and my growth. I’m also gonna do more of the things I love.